Beautiful Country: A Memoir of an Undocumented Childhood
Qian Julie Wang
Doubleday
Published September 7, 2021
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About Beautiful Country: A Memoir of an Undocumented Childhood
In Chinese, the word for America, Mei Guo, translates directly to “beautiful country.” Yet when seven-year-old Qian arrives in New York City in 1994 full of curiosity, she is overwhelmed by crushing fear and scarcity. In China, Qian’s parents were professors; in America, her family is “illegal” and it will require all the determination and small joys they can muster to survive.
In Chinatown, Qian’s parents labor in sweatshops. Instead of laughing at her jokes, they fight constantly, taking out the stress of their new life on one another. Shunned by her classmates and teachers for her limited English, Qian takes refuge in the library and masters the language through books, coming to think of The Berenstain Bears as her first American friends. And where there is delight to be found, Qian relishes it: her first bite of gloriously greasy pizza, weekly “shopping days,” when Qian finds small treasures in the trash lining Brooklyn’s streets, and a magical Christmas visit to Rockefeller Center — confirmation that the New York City she saw in movies does exist after all.
But then Qian’s headstrong Ma Ma collapses, revealing an illness that she has kept secret for months for fear of the cost and scrutiny of a doctor’s visit. As Ba Ba retreats further inward, Qian has little to hold onto beyond his constant refrain: Whatever happens, say that you were born here, that you’ve always lived here.
Inhabiting her childhood perspective with exquisite lyric clarity and unforgettable charm and strength, Qian Julie Wang has penned an essential American story about a family fracturing under the weight of invisibility, and a girl coming of age in the shadows, who never stops seeking the light.
The moving story of an undocumented child living in poverty in the richest country in the world — an incandescent debut from an astonishing new talent.
My Review
This book has been on my reading list for years. I first heard about it because the author shared a painful experience at a speaking engagement, and others started talking about her book and encouraging people to buy a copy. I bought one, but it took me a long time to finally get to reading it. My mom read this book long before I did.
I’m not sorry that I read the book now, as it’s about the author’s experiences as an undocumented child in an undocumented family. It’s far too easy for us to read headlines and get lost in emotions about the issues, rather than stopping to examine the stories of people who are actually living those experiences.
Some of the things Qian Julie Yang describes are heartbreaking. The effect of being perpetually hungry on her body. The loneliness. Her desire to protect the cat her family briefly adopts. Her fear for her mother while she’s in the hospital.
Reading each chapter felt like watching the author wrestle with her memories and the innocence of her younger self. That struggle felt so authentic, and it made me hold my breath sometimes, as each scene unfolded.
This year, I’ve also been making my way through the Front Desk series by Kelly Yang. While the experiences Yang describes are different than Wang’s, there are some noteworthy parallels, too. Both emphasize the struggle to learn not only to speak English but also to write it. They reflect on the pressure they feel to assimilate into American culture while also remaining connected to their heritage.
While those books aren’t intended for the same audience, I think they would make interesting side-by-side reads. There are some big differences between them, but some striking similarities as well. I highly recommend Beautiful Country if you’re looking for a compelling childhood memoir.
Content Notes
Recommended for Ages 16 up.
Profanity/Crude Language Content
Strong profanity used very infrequently.
Romance/Sexual Content
A white man takes an interest in Qian and her family. Nothing overt happens, and Qian is never along with him, but he’s definitely creepy. A young woman tells Qian’s mom that this man has sexual thoughts about all girls and women and warns her never to be alone with him.
Spiritual Content
References to beliefs about luck and curses. For example, Qian’s parents believe that the family cat, which has a lot of black fur and an asymmetrical face, will bring a curse on their family.
Violent Content
Some misogynistic and racist comments against Qian. At one point, a woman confesses that she considered jumping to her death. A man slaps a woman.
Drug Content
Reference to walking past teenagers who are smoking.
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